and he never even kissed me.

     the shit that gets me off, gets me hot like molten lava in my bed, dripping elixirs of desire down my spine is always the subtlety of distance. we all have an erotic blueprint. mine is an energetic blueprint. if you have never heard of your sexual blueprint, it's basically the format(or blueprint) to what riles your bones in the most erotic ways. and yes, there is a test. so here, go take it and join me in this journey. 

https://s.pointerpro.com/xyvvarox?_gl=1*r942gc*_ga*MjU2MDUwNjcyLjE3Mjc3MTk1Njc.*_ga_Y9LB6PMSWZ*MTcyNzcxOTU2Ni4xLjEuMTcyNzcxOTYzNy4wLjAuMA..

do not ask me why that link is so long, but i did link you to the free one so enjoy. 

back to the real shit. now, we(as a society) never really talk about true intimacy. we feed into this world of what is or is meant to be and that is built through the media and the programs that live inside our brains from such a young age here on earth. meet someone. like them, touch them. get a dinner, or movies, or crazy expedition moment. fuck. repeat. almost lose them. realize you are in love. go for the gold. trust. win.
and there you have it, every single love movie in the world that any of us have ever seen. same plot. it's even in the books, and the short stories and yeah, sometimes we find it in real life too. but what makes it real? well, that is the intimacy. that is what has been tumbled over so deeply across our generation of media. We forgot to feed the uncomfortable, the desire, starve the beast a little so that it's actually hungry. it is possible that I experience it this way because I am an energetic blueprint but, also i feel like we all could use a little more angst in our journey here as humans. an energetic blueprint is basically a walking clit. the thing MANY, and way too many don't realize about the clit, is that it is intimately sensitive. come on guys, remember the basic knowledge you learned... somewhere (cause many of us didn't learn this in school), the clit has 8000 nerve endings. well, that's me. hello. I am a little clit and the softer you are with me intimately, the more pleasure I experience. the rest of the pussy, yes lots of pressure and pleasure spots but not the clit. the clit loves rhythm and a soft tongue. ah, touch. my bad.... ;) 

so what do i mean by ultimate sensitivity? well, for me, the further you are away from me, the hotter it is for me. i know, so weird. but long distance isn't that hot either. What i mean is that, let's say i am very into you, well, if we go to a party and you stand across the room and we're both having conversations with different people and every now and then we touch our sexual power of INTIMACY and use our sexual energies to touch souls, OH MY GOD. an hour of that and by the time I am home i am a waterfall dude. and you would never even have to have a conversation with me at the event, though i would like to probably because you would be my escape from people if I was into you. so, basically, I can be turned on and orgasm without ever being touched. I have even messed around with partners who have literally touched my energy field and gotten me to orgasm., and yes I can orgasm just from the sun touching my skin. it's erotic for me, pleasurable, present and that is the gold in my experience. As much as we all have different blueprints, this experience for me and I feel everyone is what true intimacy is. let's dive deeper.

imagine your favorite recent moment or memory that just got you good, made your insides ache for pleasure, and yet fills you with pleasure to even think about. mine was this magical evening with this guy. now, the moment is usually driven by an energy, a field, a moment that was so powerful that it just woke you up from the inside out. I have a really hard time being attracted to others. looks are easy, but the thing I actually feel turned on by is someone's energy. So it's really rare i find someone with an energy activated enough for me to feel a pull towards them. This guy had it, it was strong, beyond powerful. and there were many reasons that could have been, though unneeded for this conversation. but he was there, he was activated from the inside out just being. He may have not even known, but i could feel it from the second I met him. now for me, I live on a little island so it's not often you really meet new people, this was a very divinely orchestrated meeting because it found me out of no where and was really simply present to be a walking reminder to myself of how alive abundance is. very beautiful. But this day/night, since we spent an odd amount of hours together, was this extremely well done rise of and tease into my erotic blueprint. The evening came with so much kindness, presence which is what really got me, and so many signs. now all the signs and a lot of the magic of that evening was really my angels communicating with me and that is really another story. but the way this man played with the energy of this evening was so attractive. 

i've always been the odd one who is attracted to the most unexpected of partners because it always comes from a place of seeing how they toy with the energy of the people around them. they tease the energy back and forth and oddly, I have seen these beings always become deeply successful in their worlds because once you learn to the tease the energy with even one person, you learn to with the world. each day and moment is a move in chess, use the board to your advantage. this however, is also just the game of intimacy which has not ever actually been taught. it is something only those who have worked to learn under the table, know. if you have ever existed, you know the tale of why nice guys finish last. why does the bad boy always win? it's because he knows the game of intimacy, he understands the tease. thank you damon salvatore. he can detach to a degree and play with the energy of the girl to a point of slowly pulling her closer by standing farther away from her, even if its only by a slight degree. we as beings crave to fill the space. We want to build, create, design - it is our program. so if we see an empty room, we will fill it. but if we see a full room, we will find an empty one. space is the secret, space in your closeness is the secret. so this guy, yeah i know you're waiting for me to finish the story. it's better when i tease you just a little at a time, don't you think?

i spent the eve with this guy, and here's the catch, this wasnt even a date. it wasn't anything actually, just two beings hanging out(which is honestly all people really do these days anyways so everything is kind of a date?) who knows. we had a magical time, we ate food, kinda, had some drinks, walked down to the beach, laid on the sand, and stared up at the stars. here's where things went right. the entire evening this man stayed an equal distance of about 3 feet from me. THE WHOLE NIGHT. this is intimacy, because the entire night stopped being about being near and shifted to being about being. simply conversating, looking at one another when the other would look off, a game of push and pull in energy. all this was magical, but this wasn't even the moment that riled me up, whipped me like honey + butter. this was all just the tease. now the night was over, dude it was like midnight and I needed to drive home, but before that we went back to his space for me to grab my things and head out. but there was just an energy from the entire evening lingering, it was playful and present and we stopped for a moment to create one more moment and we both shared some poetry with one another. now this, this was the fire. i already, as a poet, am WEAK at someone who will share poetry with me but for you, it could be your thing that someone shares with you. in this moment we were sharing poetry and here's where my energetic blueprint exploded. after 7+ hours of time together being three feet apart, he stood closer and he read his poem. when i tell you, my heart was so thick i could've choked on it, i was on my knees in my mind. we were just close enough and still far enough apart to not be touching. i shared my poem and then for this one moment, but a mere few seconds, we looked into one another's eyes and i was molten lava. the heat in my entire system rose and i ran. yeah, not what you saw coming, but the energy in that moment was so powerful (and dude it takes a STRONG energy to get me like that) i couldn't breathe another minute in that room without my desire pouring from my system. so I told him i had to go and basically ran out the door. that night i got home and melted into my bed. the energy in my entire system, from that moment, vibrating. it was activating to say the least. this is the power of learning to tease true intimacy, because this memory has lived rent free in my mind since that day and still riles my entire system up when it decides to reminisce. all this power and I am more attracted to this moment than I have been to a guy in so long its hideous. but gorgeous. and the funniest part of the entire thing, is that he never even kissed me. 

to be gods honest, i dont even know if he meant to do this. it was just him being. now that is hot.